By Xin Lu
After I accepted God’s work of , through reading God’s words and fellowshiping with brothers and sisters, I understood that God came to express the truth in the last days to change our old values and outlooks on existence. As long as we accept the truth and act according to God’s requirements, our corrupt disposition will be cleansed, and we will obtain His salvation and walk the right path of life. God also admonished us, “But to people, it seems like a world of gaiety and splendor, one that is becoming more and more so. When people look upon the world, their hearts are drawn to it, and many are unable to extricate themselves from it; great numbers will be beguiled by those who engage in trickery and sorcery. If you do not strive for progress, and are without ideals, you will be swept away by this sinful wave.” However, as I had been living in this evil world, Satan’s rules of living, like “Seize the day for pleasure, for life is short” and “Man lives just to get food and clothing,” had been implanted deep into my heart, dominating my life. Thus, though outwardly I believed in God, my heart was attracted by worldly trends and I pursued fleshly luxurious enjoyments, like eating, drinking, leisure activities. Especially in 2011, when my husband’s business gained ground and our life became better, my heart fell away from God. I always felt that believing in God and pursuing the truth were too painful. All day my brain was occupied with things like where to have meal, where to have fun, or what to wear.
One day in May, 2011, as I rode my electric scooter on the street, suddenly I heard a loud bang not far behind me. I was startled. Oh! A traffic accident again! Someone must be struck badly. When I was about to turn back and see, I went shooting through the air from the electric scooter and fell down hard to the ground. I was totally stupefied. Just when I was puzzled, a strong external force ran over my hips, and immediately followed a louder crash and screams, moans, and crying for help from the people around. The heartrending pain in my body made me unable to move. I thought in despair: It is over. I must be disabled and paralyzed from the waist down even if I survive. I felt very fearful and uneasy in my heart and looked around. The ground was strewn with fallen bicycles, motorbikes and electric scooters, and several cars collided together. Soon, the street was blocked, and ambulances were continually carrying the wounded, who were all screaming and moaning unceasingly. Seeing such a situation, I felt despair as if death would come upon me at any time. At that moment I cried out to God in my heart earnestly and repented again and again, “O God, please save me! I know in the past I disobeyed You. I hid myself from Your care, kept away from Your truth, and loved living in Satan’s snare that I lost Your protection and descended to this circumstance. O God! I was wrong! It is not until now that I know materials things, money, and fleshly enjoyments are all vanities, all the material things are not important. Without Your care and protection, my life is so fragile, and it’s pitiable, lowly and worth nothing like a beggar or a falling leaf. At that point God’s words appeared in my mind: “Those living outside My word, fleeing the suffering of trial, are they not drifting through the world? They are akin to autumn leaves fluttering here and there with no place to rest, much less My word of consolation. Although My chastisement and refinement follow them not, are they not the beggars, floating around, that wander the streets outside the kingdom of heaven? Is the world really your place of rest?” “On earth, all manner of evil spirits are endlessly on the prowl for a place to rest, are ceaselessly searching for the corpses of men to eat up. My people! You must remain inside My care and protection. Never behave dissolutely! Never behave recklessly! Rather, offer up your loyalty in My house, and only with loyalty can you mount a countercharge against the devil’s cunning. Under no circumstances must you behave as in the past, doing one thing before My face and another behind My back—that way you are already beyond redemption. Surely I have uttered more than enough of words like these, have I not? It is precisely because man’s old nature is incorrigible that I have repeatedly reminded him. Do not get bored! All that I say is for the sake of ensuring your destiny!”
Especially this question “Is the world really your place of rest?” tugged on the strings of my heart. I couldn’t help but reflect back on the days past: Although I believed in God outwardly, I indulged in eating, wearing, and having fun every day, feeling that food, clothing, and pleasure were important and that it was happy to follow the worldly trends. However, at this very moment how was I? Could these things bring me peace? Thinking of God’s earnest admonition, I had never taken it to heart. In doing His work, God never forces anyone; it was me who chose to abandon myself to depravity and indulged in the enjoyment of money, delivering myself into Satan’s hands and allowing it to trample and harm me. At that point, my regretful tears fell down like beads, and I repented to God again, “O God! I should have listened to Your words, walked the right path of life and pursued the truth and life. Yet I persisted in pursuing the worthless fleshly enjoyment. Today I am in an accident, it’s right I should suffer. O God! I was so disobedient! Whether I’ll die or live, I’m willing to submit to Your arrangement….”
Unconsciously, I was pushed into the examination room and I heard someone saying, “This woman was also run over by a car, give her an examination first! The former one suffers comminuted fracture in the hips and is still in a coma. And this woman’s condition isn’t good either!” Then I, like a puppet, was turned over and over and examined, and I kept calling out to God in my heart. After a long time, I heard a doctor speaking surprisingly, “Amazing! A car at least weighs 1000 kg; if it runs over a man, the consequence would be fatal. But actually her internal organs are all okay, and she has no fracture except some soft tissue injuries. It is incredible! Someone may have made a mistake, or she’s in luck!” Then the doctor said to me, “Your condition is not bad! Stay in the hospital for observation for several days and have a good rest. It won’t be long before you are released.” At the doctor’s words, I had mingled feelings, and my tears fell down continuously. I felt exited, joyful, regretful, and what’s more, gratitude to God. When the accident happened to me, God did not abandon me—a disobedient son, and He still enlightened and guided me by His words, granted me the grace to save me from the disaster. God had been watching by my side in silence and waiting for me to turn back. Although I experienced the dangerous traffic accident, I hadn’t been harmed seriously, which made me truly feel that God’s heart is good, compassionate, and tolerant. Just like God’s words say, “He worries for us night and day, He protects and cares for us night and day, He never leaves our side, and He devotes all His care to us and pays any price for us.” I was grateful to God for His great love, and at the same time I deeply felt that I didn’t deserve such love and salvation from God. The only thing I could do was to give thanks and praises to God. Later I heard a journalist who came to the hospital to interview the victims say that it was a grave accident due to the driver’s drowsy driving. When he struck the pedestrians, he was in such a panic that he mistook the acceleration pedal for brake pedal, and then he knocked over five more persons and stopped. The accident resulted in a person’s comminuted fracture in the hips, which might lead to paralysis. The rest all suffered varying degrees of fracture, among whom I was the one with the slightest injury. People around all said, “You are so lucky!” But I knew it was the deed of God. All the glory be to God!
The traffic accident not only made me realize how vulgar and worthless it was to pursue the fleshly enjoyments, but also allowed me to experience the power of and see the value of the truth to us humans, and thus I changed my views on pursuit. God’s deeds really are wonderful! More important is that in my experience I have appreciated God’s almightiness and wisdom and His salvation to me. I can’t help but fall down before God, “O God! In the past I was so disobedient to You, but You didn’t abandon me. You saved me in the danger and kept me from ill fortune. All this is Your great power, even more Your mercy and tolerance for me. I have seen Your great love! The experience of the accident made me cherish Your salvation. I will reform and no longer pursue those vain and worthless things, I will obey Your words and pursue the truth and do my utter most to perform my duty to repay Your great love.”
All the glory be to Almighty God!
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